another sheet of paper please.
On a totally different note from the previous post, I went for my hand grenade live throw today. Everything went smoothly, and we felt the impact of a TNT block blowing up the blinds. Mine flew over the target, I went down in time and didn't get my head blown off. Good enough for me. MRT ride also proved bountiful for my eyes. I hope it happens often.
justin.
pain for pleasure.
Think of the word "punishment". Usually, punishment is an action carried out in prevention and deterrence of future mistakes, to the individual or a collective who made the mistake. Usually. There are always exceptions to the case. In this case, a particular group of people known as "sadomasochists" take the word in a slightly different perspective. They sometimes mispronounce the word "punishment" for the word "pleasure". Which is quite difficult to do, but it happens anyway. However, this is not the group I'd like to discuss. After all, their own pain is their own pleasure. None of my business.
The group of people I'd like to point out is those who punish others for their own pleasure. The reasons for their pleasure can be accurately deduced. This is because such people usually crave the same things, namely, attention and display of their "authority". And the reason they crave such things are most likely low self esteem, or mental instability. In the case in which I experienced, it was a combination of both, spiced up with an extra dash of sexual misorientation. And lack of grace and class. As well as a face I wouldn't like to be caught with in public.
The person I refer to has a small amount of authority over a middle sized group of people similar to a secondary school class. I realised that I have often complained about authority in the past. But this is a new can of worms altogether. The person likes to show his authority whenever he can, setting the small group up so that he can punish them and make people react to it so that he has a chance to punish them further and up his internal "happy meter". I don't really know what makes him tick but I suspect it's attention. Which is why he loves wielding his "authority" over this group of people. The thing is that authority given is different from authority earnt. By engaging in his(I'm not really sure about using this word) little mind games, which in my opinion is really bitchy, he has done nothing but piss people off. But hey, any attention is good attention right? Also, being afraid that the group would mistake him as a normal human being, he also likes to frequently display his incompetence, leading to further negative ATTENTION(THIS IS A KEY WORD) being directed at him. The key word, in case you didn't catch it, is attention. Probably to stroke his ego and push up his self esteem which is somewhere buried beneath the depths of the Pacific Ocean.
This low self esteem also leads to the person mentioned to have severe paranoia. An innocuous song which did mention certain mistakes which he committed in one of his displays of incompetence led to me being pulled out and questioned. However, I would like to point out that while the mistakes were being mocked, no names were mentioned. By fitting oneself in the song and being severely pissed off at the person who started it all points to low self esteem. While the song was not the most tactful thing to do, Sir Isaac Newton's 3rd Law does mention that every action will have an equal and opposite reaction. So he should have expected it. And maybe he did. And he was trying to set whoever reacted up for some punishment. And it so happened to be me.
Another thing this person is amazingly skilled at is the shifting of blame. During the massive chaos which he caused in making us rush to places due to the unbelievably short time given, one guy was elbowed in his back, where he happened to be injured before. Immediately, without consideration for who caused the chaotic situation, which coincidentally was himself, he boomed out in a loud and wussy-like voice, "WHO ELBOWED (injured guy)!" I do not even wish to continue.
This, being a first person account, is bound to be biased and to some extent inaccurate. Whether I can be believed or not is entirely based on the reader, as well as possibly other accounts given. As for the guy, I wish him good luck in life. He's not going to go far without lots of it.
justin.
give me.
"Deme la libertad o Deme la muerte"
Give me my freedom or give me death.
from Velvet Revolver's new album Libertad.
a good investment.
Take a look at this
link.
Perhaps Mr Leader-of-our-protection-company-of-our-island-city-state would like to invest in this and spare all your underlings the pain of cleaning up our wives.
justin.
Survivor 1billion: Tekong
There on the island, it is about survival. Survival can be classified into individual survival, or group survival. However, they might not exist together. The presence of one could thus lead to the demise of the other. In individual survival, the most important thing is instinct. Instinct is something hard to explain. You either have it or you don't. A case study might be taken from the island.
For example, we are not supposed to carry an item outside of the stipulated area because doing so is actually a very serious offense which might lead to severe punishment of the individual who actually does do so. So this guy, whom I shall call "Emperor", spots one of the item on the ground when another guys stands up. Immediately, his hand shoots up, and his mouth blares out an alarm signal to tell the whole world that the item is there, and that he saw it when the other guy stood up. This is the individual survival instinct of Emperor. By indicating he saw the item beside the other guy, he is trying to absolve himself from blame, thus surviving. Most people actually try to survive by pushing fault to others. While the attention is on the other person, he slinks off into the night(usually). Most people usually try this method and when more than 1 person does it at the same time, it is more commonly known as "The Blame Game".
In this case however, Emperor only managed to alert superiors on this matter, and get the whole group landed in hot water. Group survival has therefore become rather impossible. As does individual survival in this case. As the whole group is susceptible to punishment for an individuals mistake, an action leading to individual survival drags the whole group down. In simpler terms, attempts at framing others to escape punishment for self would somehow or other lead to ones self-demise.
Another means of survival is through cunning and playing dirty, which I believe a superior of mine is a master exponent at. Through the exploitation of power and the tendency to let others do his dirty work, making himself the "good guy/whatever", this self-proclaimed male, has basically fucked many people up, while still protecting himself. Deft(but undoubtedly stupid to me) use of language usually manipulates people into doing something he wants. Something our sub group is not very good at however, is being controlled, despite already being under the ultimate control. As such, the way to get back at him is to play dirty, with methods of which I have yet to discover, since playing dirty is not in my blood.
Personally, I also find complaints to a fellow colleague to a superior behind his back particularly abhorrent. This shows a lack of male reproductive organ sacs, as well as a certain degree of the 2 aforementioned methods of survival. As I shall prove now, taking long afternoon naps is also a key factor in ensuring ones survival. I do not know why but it just is.
justin.
chinese new year.
Master Splinter, Mickey Mouse, Rattata, Raticate and Jerry wishes everyone a happy year of the Rat. Despite the fact Mickey and Jerry are actually mice.
an ass.
As I stepped on mainland Singapore soil for the 1st time in 12 days, my thoughts were ironically with that island resort somewhere East. The most memorable lessons that 12 day chalet/boot camp(yes, the difference is this big) with more to come had taught me was about time management and interpersonal relationships. Since I'm not actually allowed to blog about events inside the resort island, I won't. But what happened inside can be intricately linked to the civilian world.
Firstly on time management. People always get the idea that it is good to be early. They are not wrong. Being early is good because punctuality is a virtue, and being early is being punctual. Time is therefore not wasted. However, my personal opinion is that being early is not good time management. The time given is not maximised. Such as when breaks are given, people sometimes like to report early, showing enthusiasm in their work. Good for them. But eating up your own time to start duties earlier. I'd label it inefficient time management.
People might argue that it is efficient because it gets work done and one can rest later. Sure, that's true theoretically. But in the real world, when one gets work done early, guess what he gets? More work. Another catch is that no matter how much work you get done, the highest position one can get to is not much. In this case, over-efficiency is overcompensating others with your effort getting nothing in return. In simpler Justin terms, it is known as stupidity.
Then there is the situation of having poor interpersonal relationships, which may or may not be linked to time management. Let's say an efficient(stupid) person is early for an official meeting. Then he shouts at the people with good time management to hurry up when the fact of the matter is that the deadline given is not yet arriving. Some thoughts have also probably never passed through that efficient guy's mind.
1. He is early and the people he is shouting at are not late. Yet.
2. He is not very adept at communicating his thoughts tactfully.
3. His position in the organisation is the same as the people who might yet arrive on time.
4. He is being stupid.
5. No matter how early he is, that position will stay.
Since these thoughts have never crossed his might, his mouth naturally opens and asks people to hurry up. There is a logic to this. As the old adage goes "Empty vessels makes the most noise." Since there is a lack of thoughts in his head, noises naturally emerge. As this is due to the law of the universe, the efficient guy should not be blamed.
Interpersonal relationships are not only between people of the same position. There is also the matter of interpersonal relationships between superiors and subordinates. As a superior, one will definitely have more power than the subordinate under his control. However, there is this tiny matter which is the difference between a good leader and a wanker. This tiny matter is a little something people like to refer to as "respect". Respect is earnt and never demanded. When a superior is fair, respect is naturally earnt. When the superior is obviously biased, respect will never be accorded to him/her. The people he is biased towards will lick his boots and those whom he is biased against would never give him any of the respect he demands. Therefore, when a superior nitpicks on his subordinates, giving unconstructive criticism, bitterness and indignance will emerge within the subordinates and the superior has lost whatever little respect was accorded to him in the first place.
As these thoughts passed through my head, I had already unknowingly reached home from the resort island. In 5 days, I will be returning to learn more lessons about life and beyond. For now, I shall go and pour more nin jiom pei pa koa down my throat so that I do not lose my voice.
justin.
