degeneration.
I feel my brain slowly dying, as without adversity, creativity does not occur. As it is, I'm sitting on a chair all day, feeling my brain slowly leaving my head through my ears and my nose. Need to do something productive. Ugh.
justin.
if in any case i die.
Then this shall suffice as what I would like to be done. In list form for easy reference.
1)If I die as of now, it would most definitely be before my time, and as such, met with some resistance from myself, as well as some of my family members. Therefore, I'm sorry for dying as such, but as you can see there's not much I can do. So leave the bad feelings to the person who caused it(also the dead person) because dead people cannot feel, so leaving them the bad feelings won't be as bad for them. It's like playing jackhammer noises into a deaf mans ear. Blissfully oblivious.
2)Ignore point number 1 because lists aren't supposed to contain long paragraphs.
3)Destroy my hard drive, because hidden somewhere in it there is a collection of pornography that is for my own eyes only. Please?
4)Distribute whatever I have (other than the hard drive) to my family members. Obviously. I'd also like to apologise because I am merely giving back to them what I have taken for about 24 years. Other than my brother and sister, who are leeching off the (hypothetical) death of their older brother.
5)Thank all my friends who have in some form or other been there for me in the course of my life. Friends include people whom I have not kept in contact with for some reason or other. They can be thanked less, but must still be thanked all the same. Then special thanks should be given to special friends, special-ness of which should be determined by themselves. Because you would know who you are.
6)Don't ignore point number 5 even though it's a long paragraph, because it's IMPORTANT.
That's all I can think of at the moment, but one last thing. I hope I don't die yet.
justin.
of time lost and never regained. unless you have a time machine.
So, upon evaluation, of which the process I am not bothered to go through, I see enlightenment on the path to my future. My options lie in only one, but one area, that is a cynical taxi driver who occasionally drives to Malaysia.
And also, I realise it's June now. The days are just melting into each other.
justin.
