Logicless Logic

more weird and random stuff.

hmm. i get this everytime i have something i need to do. i will think of other stuff other than what i need to think of right now, which is maths paper. instead i thought of what i thought of last night, while lying on my bed. you know when you're half asleep and lots of stuff run through your mind at a stage where you are halfway between conscious and subconscious. thats where many good ideas come out from. however, it is difficut to harvest these ideas. this is because part of the idea is from the subconscious side of your mind. or so i'd like to think. so once you get up to get a pen and paper to jot down that idea. its gone and you stare at the pen and paper and go "uhhhh". you know? and sometimes these are the things that keep you up at night. they make you half asleep yet unable to fall asleep because the stuff runs through so fast, when you wanna recall what you thought about 5 seconds ago, you CAN'T. sometimes, what should be a minor incident that happened billions of years ago, pops up in your head and you go "hey i remember that", yet you cant remember those horrific equations which you studied for amaths paper a few months ago. i also thought of something else while in that "halfway house" between conscious and subconscious. i guess its quite lucky that i recall what i thought of. that something else is how maybe sometimes just one thing that is said to you at some unrememberable point of your life changes you forever. it may not even be directed at you. maybe when you were a kid, someone said you were very competitive. you were so determined to prove that someone wrong that you become the exact opposite. you become so un-competitive that you veer on the life of a bum. you know that sorta thing? not exactly the questions that are easily answered. after all its different for different people right? then you keep thinking if its possible until you feel a vibration. and then that sickening alarm tone of your handphone telling you to get out of bed and get ready for another dull and boring day. just when you were about to get the answer. or something like that. then sometimes the idea which you thought was genius while half asleep turns out to be bullshit the next day when you are fully awake. i dunno. i seem to be getting many weird thoughts nowadays. you know. stuff that keep you up at night. i guess with all these shit i didn't really get to paragraphing this entry. im not about to now that im almost finished. there im done. =D

justin.

posted by justin @ 5:58 PM